Without action there are only words. Modern society is adept at this construct. If you listen to others, there is only abstraction. So what is it that you have not yet found within yourself? You made a fortress, Iboga "could" be your key, but in reality, there is only you.
So simply put, you cannot see that the malaise you experience, you actually created. Now it is true, that consciousness has left for us, on this earth, a plant that enables you to see past the physical constructs that your mind has created. Would you not take this opportunity of redemption? Like some beautiful puzzle, you always have the final piece. Your soul is waiting in essence, but it has eternity on its side, it is only you that is bound by conditioning.